I have promised myself that I would be as honest as possible in the course of writing on this blog, no matter how uncomfortable or painful or imperfect. Before I write out more about what happened to me after Mike died, I want to take a second to address current day things. I am aContinue reading “Forgiveness”
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Avoidance
This March 1st (2026) marks 5 years now since my brother Mike died. In my last post I talked about the last time I saw him alive, as he died right near the end of the prison sentence determined at that court hearing. If you haven’t listened to the podcast episodes linked in the priorContinue reading “Avoidance”
The Thread that Unraveled
An awakening. I’ve let a good bit of time slip away again before picking back up with this tale. I guess that may be an indication of how much it still hurts, even though I like to think I have already let out most of the pain. The fact that I keep trying to avoidContinue reading “The Thread that Unraveled”
Fear and Anger and Pain
In my last post I described a little of what Mike and I’s teenaged years felt like. To continue on that thread I will tell you that by the time Mike was around 15/16 years old he was deeply buried in the swirling world of his constant drug use, trying to keep his demons fromContinue reading “Fear and Anger and Pain”
Into the Shadows
The last place we left off before I went on hiatus from this blog was how my brother Mike struggled in his earliest years, and how the people and systems around him were already failing to meet his needs from the very start, how his community was failing to support and properly love him atContinue reading “Into the Shadows”
How Did I End Up Here?
I’m back! I know, I know, I left everyone hanging for 3 years while I went into my little hidey hole. Opening up your heart to the world is a scary endeavor after all, and I was still deeply in the trenches of my healing when I started this blog. A lot of life hasContinue reading “How Did I End Up Here?”
Something to Prove
He grew to distrust authority figures very early in his life. Try as he might, the rest of the world seemed to be on a different sheet of music than he was, and he learned early on that trying to play their tune was impossible for him to do. So, he better be ready to put up a fight whenever he was confronted for playing the wrong notes.
The Earliest Days
“There are certain people in your life you prepare yourself to lose.” -Dave Grohl
Thirty-Three 